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[..:: directions ( part II ) ::..]
i went for a forlorn run late last night, desperately wanting to huff away a rather disappointing day. with the feeling of the cold wind gushing through my clammy body, such familiar comfy sensation helped to soothe me down once again.
as i was shuffling along a dark quiet passage, a startling strange feeling of eeriness suddenly encompassed me. weirdly, for a few bizzare seconds, i sensed some miserable souls crying wretchedly to me, as if regretting walking the sinister path that they had chosen in life.
this creepy feeling overwhelmed me as i dashed upon my intended end point and unknowingly, i continued running. some thoughts inadvertently flashed. i felt terrified and disgusted by the bad deeds that i had done, shocked and sickened by the evil thoughts i had once harvested.
pain and exhaustion then took control and i felt repentant all of a sudden. i became guilty and apologetic towards my beloved ones whom i had disrespectfully offended. penitently, i struggled to pushed myself to run even harder, as if trying to pay for the unwarranted wrongs that i had blindly commited.
finally i could not carry on any longer and stopped. those short flashes of self reflection had awakened me. my confusion had came to a conclusion, that i still have my conscience. my unsettled mind was once overcasted by several rancorous influences, i shall now abandon them and live with scruples again.
i now understood what caused my dilemma. my mind and my heart were trying to rule differently. one was telling to head for the lights, while the other was tempted to go astray. well, the mind and the heart can now function in cohesion. i am now clear of which way i should head, which path i should take...
posted by C.L @
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